i do not care if you are going to get offended by what i write.
if you are not happy, just get your ass out of my blog.

hello people! my name is GOHZHENYING! i am 19 and my birthday is on 17FEB
i am a TRUE SN GIRL for 10 years of my life, currently working, (which is STILL a waste of time), while waiting for my university application results. OMGNESS, im bored all the time so entertain me.
BEWARE, i am KPOP CRAZY

i ♥x1000000~
SS501!
KIM HYUN JOONG!
CHOI SIWON!
JANG GUEN SUK!
罗志祥!
小鬼!
炎亚纶!
郑元畅!
DOMO-KUN!
TOTORO!
BEAST/B2ST!
SHINEE!
JOKWON&GA-IN COUPLE!
SSANGCHU!
DRACO MALFOY!

i like to waste my time watching DRAMAS, ANIME, MANGA, FANFICS!
i'm a HYPOCRITE so stay away from me. YOU'VE BEEN WARNED

P.S. THIS FRIGGIN LIST IS NOT UPDATED, COS MY ULTIMATE LOVE IS NOT IN THE LIST~

feel like writing a long post. finally after so long. lets talk about something i like then, what about my favourite in kpop! haha, ppl who know me shld noe how crazy i am w/ regards to kpop! haha~ sometimes while i tweet, i'll think abt 到底 who do i like the most out of the so many groups. so, tadahhh~ lets do a summary for this post shall we? :D 안녕친구s! UPDATES

19th nov- late night outing with colleagues = FOOOOODDD
20th nov- SUJU SS3 concert ticket sales (have to start queuing on 19th = 2 days gone)
20th nov- HP Deathly Hallows pt 1! OMG~ DARLING GRYFF TRIO AND MY ULT LOVE SEXY MALFOY IS BACK!
24th nov- meet up with queen weiduo :)
25th nov- gathering w/ darling 吴秀晶 keke the gal finally finishing her As :DD
27th nov- US trip :) with shifu, chia and jolin jie jie [POSTPONED TO 13TH DEC :)]
29th nov- HP Deathly Hallows pt 1 2nd watching with shifu and chia :D (plus steamboat =.= AGAIN) [POSTPONED TO 1 DEC:)]
1to3 dec- HJL appearance in SG (not going liao)
1st dec- Movie with shifu and chia :) HP&DH! ♥
1st dec- HJL Flight Arrival at T2 (9.20pm)
1st dec- 2AM Flight Arrival at T3 (9.50pm)
1st dec- Kwonnie's Flight Arrival at T2(?) (11.45pm)
2nd dec- 2AM fansign! with weiduo and chia :D ♥♥♥
3rd dec- colleague's gathering, yet again :)
3rd dec- HJL fan meet at IMM (not gg cos no money =.=)
4th dec- MNET CONCERT!!!!!!!!!!!! KEKEKE (but i'll most probably start queuing from 3rd)
7th dec- Meet Up with weiduo ♥ FOOD OUTING!
13th dec- US trip with chia, shifu, jolin jie jie & chris + son :)

okay, i've updated as accordingly... hmm.. seemed like it'll be a busy december as well :P hehe! so apparently, i was too tired to come in ytd for pic spamming session~ ohwells~ forget abt pic spam session... im sick of it even before i started zzz

currently at work~ nobody as usual~ wasting my time... today had 108 lesson and dr mok was telling us how to do tony coursework qn~ haha~ BUT I STILL DUNNO HOW TO DO LAH ZZZ anw~ 110 finally gg into vol 2~ FINALLY smth i'll understand~ internet~ html codes~ COOL~ kekeke~

haha~ gtg liao lah... i got sick typing alr~ shall go back to my twitterland~ ANNYEONG! KEKEKE in the mood to pic spam :) shall do so when I'm home EDIT: 22 Nov 2010
23 Nov 2010

UPDATES:

19th nov- late night outing with colleagues = FOOOOODDD
20th nov- SUJU SS3 concert ticket sales (have to start queuing on 19th = 2 days gone)
20th nov- HP Deathly Hallows pt 1! OMG~ DARLING GRYFF TRIO AND MY ULT LOVE SEXY MALFOY IS BACK!
24th nov- meet up with queen weiduo :)
25th nov- gathering w/ darling 吴秀晶 keke the gal finally finishing her As :DD
27th nov- US trip :) with shifu, chia and jolin jie jie
29th nov- HP Deathly Hallows pt 1 2nd watching with shifu and chia :D (plus steamboat =.= AGAIN)
1to3 dec- HJL appearance in SG (not going liao)
2nd dec- 2AM FAN MEET AND AUTOGRAPH SESSION AT IMM!<3 my kwonnie and seulong and jinwoon and changmin :P
3rd dec- colleague's gathering, yet again :) but TBC
3rd dec- HJL fan meet at IMM (not gg cos no money =.=)
4th dec- MNET CONCERT!!!!!!!!!!!! KEKEKE (but i'll most probably start queuing from 3rd) it's been so long since i've blogged. last time i blog, i was still working my ass off... now, im back in sch for almost 2 months alr zzz

sch's been alright, i've srly been fascinated by my course... but i thought otherwise after watching social network zzz since me and dearest jerk ol mark is doign the same kind of work zzz IM ABIT PUT OFF BY THE IDEA OF WORKING LIKE THAT GUY =.=

anw, nov and dec is a busy mth for me.. there's the 12 assignments waiting for me to complete... plus many of my darling kpop stars are coming to singapore during this 2 mths! i can still faintly rmb rambling off my displeasure towards KPOP stars NEVER coming to sg but they are all now coming at one go... like the bullet train coming fast and hard at me =.= PAY OF COS HAVEN BEEN ENOUGH FOR ME TO KEEP UP WITH ALL MY ACTIVITIES... buying concert tickets... buying albums... buying fan packs and merchandises... LOL, all i've mentioned is just buying BUYING AND FRIGGIN MORE BUYINGGG. yeah, weiduo will sure laugh at this pt saying "hell yeah! u even haf 5 ver of the same album!" (FYI.. these albums are all 2AM Saint O' Clock album, 1 is Limited Ed Korea Ver, 1 Standard Album Kor Ver, 2 Asian ver (for the stupid GOLDEN TICKETS), and i INTEND to get their repackage (hopefully) just for the stupid yet sweet KISS song) anw, back to my ranting... it's srly gonna be a busy mth for me

plans for the next few weeks:

19th nov- late night outing with colleagues = FOOOOODDD
20th nov- SUJU SS3 concert ticket sales (have to start queuing on 19th = 2 days gone)
20th nov- HP Deathly Hallows pt 1! OMG~ DARLING GRYFF TRIO AND MY ULT LOVE SEXY MALFOY IS BACK!
27th nov- US trip :) with shifu, chia and jolin jie jie
1to3 dec- HJL appearance in SG ( no updated news yet =.=)
2nd dec- 2AM FAN MEET AND AUTOGRAPH SESSION AT IMM!<3 my kwonnie and seulong and jinwoon and changmin :P
3rd dec- colleague's gathering, yet again :) but TBC
3rd dec- HJL fan meet at IMM
4th dec- MNET CONCERT!!!!!!!!!!!! KEKEKE (but i'll most probably start queuing from 3rd)

out of the 2 days im staying outside overnight.. i haf to tell my mum that i'll be staying at jia's hse.. (WHICH I HAVEN TOLD HER) im currently getting a headache over money issue for SUJU tix which is in 3 days time zzz AND I HOPING THAT I'LL GET MY MONEY B4 MNET!!! so i can buy my merchandise T-T haish, life's hard~

i shall end of here anyway, workplace is empty like hell, which is a good thing :)

for all u guys now, i may/might start blogging again zzz BUT FOR NOW, ADIOS :)

p.s. TWITTER is still the THING for me :D

psps UPDATE 24th nov taken- dinner with weiduo :) its been a long time since i've updated my blog. actually i was about to give up the blog cos it was much easier to tweet. but somehow the recent events make me wanna come onto my blog and rant all my frustration...

2 days ago, official announcements were made regarding hyun joong leader's decision to leave DSP and head out to KeyEast instead. however right after the news came out, there were many speculation between the netizens and triple s that the act of leader is somehow like betraying the other members of ss501. i was really upset when i first read the news, not bcos i tot that leader was betraying ss501 or anyth, but the fact that he's leaving DSP = possibility of ss501 splitting up? made me really really sad. more over, there were many bashing on HJL on forums and news portal websites. i got over the fact that HJL has signed on another company actually yesterday as im sure that leader will know what's best for him and even if SS501 is to split. i'll still support th other 4 members and him if he was to turn to his acting career instead.

today, quainte501 released news on their forum which i found out via twitter. the truth behind the whole situation. even though the news has not been officially announced or confirmed, i am pretty sure that that might have been whats going on in DSP recently. fucking dsp has actually decided not to continue their contract with kyu jong. that is seriously a dumb move made by dsp. why the hell will they want to do something to anger the fans and everything. ss501 will not be ss501 without kyu jong, or leader, or any of the other 4 members (despite me not really into maknae but it'll be weird to not have him in the group) they are brothers for goodness sake. u dun split up someone just because u do not find their worth any use to u. kyu jong may seem useless to u guys, idc.. but to us triple s, he is and will forever be part of ss501. THE CENTER OF SS501. leader's decision to leave dsp as it seemes, is to protect kyu jongie. he wanted to have kyu jong's contract signed as well before he signed his. somehow its kinda obvious that kyu and HJl is sort of out of dsp. while mal and maknae is currently going to stay on with dsp, since they signed their renewal contract way b4 dsp intentions were known.

i am seriously angered by DSP. its was a stupid move they have made. the end. F*** U LUHHH ultra pissness over two matters 2 day! ooh, one more hard day to go before i can breathe with relief. have to wake up damn early for meeting tmr. gotta go to bed soon. BONAMANA MV IS OUT!!! :]



finally smth new to listen to. "D haha. been listening to this song the whole morning. trying to memorise the lyrics now~ bonamana bonamana~! :D TIRING DAY TODAY. what else, im merely sick at the thought of having to work 6 days straight again. things i want to complete by tmr. PS. stingrays look like flatten pigs just finished watching a movie. even though i really want to watch it in the cinemas, but i guessed with my hectic schedule and the lack of funds, i could probably just watched it today! anyway, this was really a very very GOOD movie. i really loveeeeed! it~ actually i loved all romantic comedy starring jennifer lopez, cos she funny too! anyway, the main actor in this movie is really a hot cutie! (fangirling~) he's australian actor alex o' loughlin! DAMN DAMN CUTE. hahaha, im man crazy today. work was damn hectic after 6 today. while chris was gone, somehow the seniors manage to create a whole new world at western union. introducing... heaven in western union! my stupid wound is still bleeding after 2 days. wad if i bleed too much! and die. haha, mumbling nonsense now cos i have nth to do.

anyway! jap is really hard to understand! tried to learn it last night and even tho i can recognise some jap words alr.. like no, ta, ~n and stuff like that! haha! and jessica's my shifu for no reason! chris is my shi tai and more complicating relationship! hahah, fun fun fun!

aigoo, im hungry alr. hmm, shall go bye lunch soon. adios! i have several things that i need to do: WHAT THE HELL DO I WANT.

i have no idea what i really want. i feel so empty everyday. i hate my job, or do i hate the people i have to see. no idea. do i seriously need the money? im only staying at western union cos my mum ask me to. seriously. i haven't even attempt to experience the six days straight type of work and im full of complains already. why the hell am i so damn fickle minded. gosh, i seriously hate myself luhh. and haven't i worked 9 days straight before. WHY THE HELL AM I GRUMBLING ABT 6 DAYS. i hate myself. grr. and i think i may have double personality. maybe, i should just go eat shit luh. GOHZHENYING, fuck you luhh. u stupid women who is a total idiot. i've given up on certain stuff somehow over this short period of time. does it really matter, of one's nationality to determine where the hell the person can only go. so what if im chinese, so what if i can only speak chinese. does the fucking little india only have indians? its not like u are of more superiorty because u are made in singapore. heck care luhh, u really think singaporeans very 大不了 meh. to the other foreigners, they might not even noe singapore exist. please u head to think luhh. singaporeans so what. so i should despise u cos im authentic chinese born singaporeann huhh. i should look down on u cos u are fucking indian arh. stupid nehs. say what gg to make sure one of us will never work again. think she god have ability to make us do as u deemed mehs. fuck off luhh. and the guy u brought along looks like a gigolo. u stupid unwanted women. HAPPY belated 2ND ANNIVERSARY TO JOONGBO~ 29TH APRIL 2010! i've gotten my pay for this mth. i need to go for major shopping! annyeong people! since i was bored and was trying to waste some time while i wait for music high to end. i drew a pic of my next hairstyle. which somehow turned out horribly. its so different from what i was thinking. is should probably just retain my mushroom (ex-jungmin) head. ;P for now. i shall wait till it grow longer. anyway, music high is finally over, yet im delaying my time to bed as usual to 3am. 3 post in one night! i must be a really stubborn person, cos i shld just go to bed instead of blogging!

cant wait for wednesday! i need my payyy sooon! im seriously broke for the next 2 dayyys peektures! direct from my lovable samsung omnia ii

hahahaha, my pretty nails :D could'nt decide on a colour so i decided to put one colour on every finger! well, that was two days ago. my nails are in a uber pretty metallic blue shade now :]


SSANGCHU 2ND ANNIVASARY PROJECT PHOTOS!

the back of the post cards! with my best wishes for both hyun joong shillang and hwang buin! omo, i miss them so much in wgm!

the front of the post cards! singapore flyer! :D i realise most s'poreans joongboers used the flyer as their post cards! this only showed that singapore has no interesting attractions, other than the ol boring flyer...

the peektures were taken in a hurry as i was rushing to work and exactly before i left them in the post box :/ hais, shld have taken better photos! oh well! i hope ssangchu has recieved my post card. for now... TO THE WORLD SSANGCHU AND ALL JOONGBO-ERS!

love y'all! keep gg strong, cos we believe that fantasy will one day become true! listening to HJB's MUSIC HIGH now. with you're beautiful soundtrack playing as the first music of the day (or shld i say night!) :] anyway, good way to start tonight! haha! they should put his show for a longer time. 1hr seemed so short all the time. anyway~, going to sleep at 2am tonight cos i dun really have anything to do tonight! and i have work tmr T_T even though the people working tmr are seriously okay! haha.

jang guen suk has probably left singapore after the fan meeting and fan signing session. oh wells, too bad i couldnt make it for the fan signing session, i dun think it will kill to get any of his merchandise, such as the pillow case that chia told me. hais, too bad i was working. nebermind tho cos ther's more to expect in may! double S making their comeback real soon! and luo xiang is coming to singapore! despite my yucky and uber disgusting timetable, at least ther's smth for me to look forward to in may.

today was a stressful day, with the VIPS in WU lucky plaza branch and patricia breathing down my neck every few minutes about customer service or what so ever. its so fake lah, for everyone at work to perform ONLY when VIPS or patricia is around. life at kerbau isnt that easy as well, i thought i could avoid S by avoiding LI but she ended up in kerbau today. uber remorseful over my actions of sending siti to LI instead. but she was okay today luhh, probably bcos she's siting like so far away from the last two counter. i love my last two counters! esp when it's me and stephanie there. we talk about all the crap that happened today, like how uncomfortable we felt looking at the mass amount of rubbish on our desk and my chicken breast meat rice i had for lunch today! and the fact that we are going on a 'diet' just so that we can fit into jolin's WU tee shirt. pretty stupid day but i really enjoyed it! chris was blabbering about us having to do 80 transactions today. well we did it! haha, but she's most probably gonna up the stats to 100 transactions next week! =.=

anyway, still waiting for nus application result! its finally fuckingly being processed. wonder how long more it will take for me to get my letter. music high is still on, maybe i can hear music from ss501 tdy! haha, i shall go, to my world of mangas, or fanfics. shall decide later. adios! like finally, i finshed my new blog skin. as observed, my ssangchu heading is now gone, but of course not for good. :D i just wanted a change cos im sick of seeing grey and red everytime i am on my blog. so currently the colour is YELLOWWWW! haha!

i found a widget which allows us to listen to korean's radio from daum! ultra cool cos now i can hear live MUSIC HIGH by HJB, not that im one of his fans, but it was more of a hoping to hearing the other SS members making an appearance on the show. oh wells, at least i have the radio station on at all time for these few days, listening to korea's radio in the middle of the nighttttt~ maybe i shld try looking for other broadcast station's radio widget. so that i can hear the others, such as MBC!!! :D

anyway, today at work was slacking. there aint alot of people. and it was raining in the evening. perfect day to work. cos there's nobody and i can play fb at LI and play tetris! :D i had LJ silvers for lunch, shldnt have eaten it cos it wasnt that worth it. had my fav milk tea after lunch and i swear im going to puke right away if anyone was to offer me a cup of milk tea cos i've been drinking them straight for 2 days, ytd at KOI CAFE, and today at GONG CHA :]

may schedule is out, forget about asking me out. im practically working every single day next mth. such stupid schedule only puts me in dilemna, whether or not to continue working in june :/ urgh, i hate may's schedule. LOADS.

anyway, ssangchu postcards are well on their way into the hands of hwang buin and hyun joong shillang. i will seriously put up the photos asap. im really lazy to put them up today. oh mans, what shall we do for their 3rd annivasary.... ... :D ultra sadness, is it my phone that's having problems or my lap top, either one i'll be heartbroken cos they are both damn new. my fone cant connect to my lap top (i can connect to windows mobile centre) and bluetooth doesnt work as well. oh gosh, shld probably get it fixed too. happy island is down for today, so it only means that i will lack behind by a level today? hias, i give up hope le. off to watch vid!

chia and my sis seems to have a fun day at school. i wanna go to school too :] polytecnic is starting school today. this will only meant that my sister, chia ying and jia wei are all going to start school while im still stuck at square one in western union. omgness, i really cant wait till its my turn to start school but why is it taking so long for the schools to at least send me a letter or smth! anyway, work has been pretty enjoyable lately, at least i feel that im opening up to the people in WU. jessica now calls me xiao nezha cos of my stupid hair. xP haha, i think i can pretty much survive working there for a few more months perhaps? hmm, shall think abt it. i seriously want to go overseas during my sister's june holiday but i heard that the air tickets are going to be friggin expensive. really have no idea whether i shld go overseas anot. i so want to go to taiwan~ T_T anw, i shall take out a portion of my pay for this mth to buy chia her nitendo dsi (bday present). i must have been really crazy when i offered to do so. oh wells, i shall just get her those. in the mean time, i need to get to calling starhub asap cos they are stupidly asking me to pay for internet usage which i din use at all. fuck starhub for now. if im not able to fix the problem, im totally determined to get a new fone. god knows if its my omnia ii thats having connection prob. actually, whether or not i'll be able to fix the fone, i will still want to buy lg lollipop. HAHAH, IM SUCH A SPENDER. :]

MONEY THAT IS CFMED GONE FOR THIS MTH PAY:
luo xiang concert ticket ($151)
nitendo dsi ($250)
that will be like 400 bucks alr? and assuming that i only have abt 700 plus or 800 plus bucks for next mth's pay, not including deduction from cpf yet. GOSH GOSH GOSH! SERIOUSLY BROKE!

oh wells, a promise's a promise. shall not think so much. anyway, i should probably get to preparing for bed cos i have work tmr, for 4 days straight! T_T hahaa, WU, here i come!


SSANGCHU POST CARD PROJECT IS PRETTY MUCH DONE. SHALL PUT OF PEEKTURES LATER ON AFTER I'VE TAKEN PICTURES OF THEM. adios~ k box session at amk today with weiduo and ahni! should i update today?
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ANNYEONG! ultra sleepy now, and my dumb feet areaching like mad. i have been losing too much sleep lately! couldnt sleep at all lah! anyway, i shall go and get my self a new pillow tmr. one that doesnt flatten dat easily! and maybe i'll finally watch my [how to train your dragon 3D] and [clash of the titan 3D] tmr all at one go. b4 my lil sis go for her camp and it will be too late to watch it anymore in the cinemas. oh gosh, im so sleepy now that i think i can fall asleep immediately once i lie on my still lousy pillow.

SICKENING PILLOW, IM ABANDONING U~! XP day one of work of this month. experiencing major working blues even though im working at LI today. why the hell am i like that. how the hell am i going to survive the next two months. OMGNESS. i suck big time.

anyway, my legs are aching for no reason. uber painful now. haha. i shall just chopped them off. MUAHAHAHAHAH omo omo!!! i was browsing through triplse s philippines pg when i saw a photo of jung min with the exactly same horse head i bought in korea!!! even though im a little slow (PERSONA ENCORE photos), but i still glad! AHAHAHA. im so glad i bought it. :]




anyway, nicole ann lee has finally bought the tics to luo xiang concert.YIPEE~ haha. cant wait to go for his concert. 22 may!!!

at lunch today, i have somehow sort out how i want to spend the rest of my holidays before uni start.

i shall continue to work till may. (may is a good month! double s new album and luo xiang concert) i promised to work for 6 months so i shall work for 6 mths. after that i'll most probably be free after june. may be going to taiwan when my sister is having her break! shopping and eating = cant wait!! come back and maybe take up korean lessons (see how first considering my uni course) and maybe learn driving? take a break till july and i shall start school in august. perfect planning. woohoo~ HAHAHA. anyway, wei duo has gotten her results for nus, and i want mine to come soon. i cant stand waiting~ ahhh! let me get into maritime~ PUHHLEASEEEEEEEEEEE. T__T back at blogging, seriously at the same time period all the time. anyways, i finally had a chance to train my maljongie at kerning PQ. coolios cos i leveled by 3 levels today. im so lazy all the time, and irefuse to go in maple as well, i should simply uninstall it to save space on my comp isnt it. haiz. anyay, i felt really bad today when i made the fone call to ah cons. i know how irritating it is to date someone and back out last minute and yet i do the same thing to her. omgness, i should just confirm my stupid working schedule with chris first next time before i make any empty promises. really sorry cons :/ i guess u must have felt disappointed when u recieved my fone call. and i bet nobody will be attending the picnic anyway even if we change the date to saturday. somehow i just know it cos we always get the same results when i organise any gathering. that's why i chose to leave the matters to ah cons. less disappointment the better. so selfish aint i.

i guess i must be really selfish. i am selfish to begin with anyway. i like to keep matters to myself and i always do weird actions just to protect myself from getting hurt, and often, the only consequences will b that the other party get hurts only. what a selfish prat/bastard whatsoever i am. so what if i know, im friggin not doing anything to correct my behaviour, im incorrigible. i get sick of myself all the time anyway. stupid sickening ME. today was i pretty enjoyable day. i guess. i have no idea on how i seriously felt. anyway, spent some time clearing the mass amount of clothes waiting for me to iron, and i managed to change my nail colour from green to blue for my left hand today. i should have been shopping for my sister's jacket today but i was so lazy that i gave away my banc jacket that i've bought in korea to her. doesnt really matter i guess since i have so many jacket, 4 and still counting. hahaha. anyway, i'll be having day off for tmr and the day after tmr. i think. supposingly meeting wei duo on thurs for an april fool gathering dinner. cant wait, since it's been a long time since i saw her at sentosa, which wasnt really that long considering that the date happened only last month i guess. may be meeting her again on saturday for kbox session. it's been really a long time since i kbox, 2 months to be exact. T_T

urgh, avoiding plans are still going on in process. hope things will work out on its own somehow. :]

ps. I REALLY NEED TO GET NIC ANN LEE TO BUY LUO XIANG TICS B4 DEY ARE ALL SOLD OUT :/ i dunno why but i've gotten sick of the feeling of people visiting my house. is it simply because i am not able to act comfortably at home. its seems so strange and 陌生 all the time. anyway, i realise her demands from me are getting more tough and tough. not that im tired to deal with them, it's just that im only afraid that these demands will be the ones to break us apart. but damn me and me cowardness to say out the truth. what kind of friend am i actually am. the bad kind i suppose. constant 纵容ing will only tire myself out only eventually, which will of course only lead to the worst consequences ever.

미안네, 가영 new sets of ssangchu wedding shoots photograph were finally revealed after a year and im so loving these photos. why the hell did they kept it for so longggg. anyway, they can be found on my blog heading! :] obviously it is up to me to change to these photos asap luhh! MAJOR MAJOR sangchuness as usual. and yet I DUN CARE. hahaha! ssangchu is cute~ participating in 2nd year anniversary project, how could i miss such fun, since the last project was much fun as well (paper crane folding) this time it's postcards project! so it will only mean that i should go look for some prwetty postcards and go segyero everyday!




and anyway, its official. i really hate SMU. tmr's work is at kerbau, and no matter how much i hate it. i just have to learn to endure it. mich will be sitting next to me tmr, and i seriously have no idea what the hell is wrong with her. is she simply solely affected by someone that leads to her indifferent attitude towards me or what. call me racist or what so ever, but seriously, people of the same race simply ends up grouping tgt and leave out the others. i dun really give a damn, just that i have to endure one whole day of peace and solitary life. when tmr ends, it shall be my last time seeing this person called mich since she's only working this mth, so buhhbye and get the hell out of my sight asap tmr.

been having stomachache the whole day. had a damn friggin headache before lunch, plus stomachache, plus nauseousness and stuff like that. i think im getting sick from the rain, or maybe too much food. good knows. but i need to get these symptons fixed cos they are resulting in me losing focus at work which could have only meant one thing, losing money. i've alr lost 185 this mth. and there's 3 more working day this mth. ahhh. maybe i can use this as an excuse to tell chris and WU sayonara/annyeong/goodbye/zaijian and blahs.

i shall leave now cos i told myself to sleep by 2. i need the toilet before that anyway. so BUHHBYE! and till next time ^^ im actually amazed, at how some people are willing to waste some energy on answering questions which are totally pointless. they speak for the purpose of speaking, with no logical reason. why the hell will one want to waste energy on talking about certain issues, when the only response the person can get is actually "yah, and erm..." and stuff like that. its so meaningless, and it simply only make me seem so rude or whatsoever because i refuse to waste any of my time on answering meaningless topics. well, at least that's what actually hapening at work. the one that i hate actually like to do such stuff, alot. and i seem to be crossing over her line when i am not able to answer any of such stuff. she sees me as someone who is pretty much sensitive and reluctant to share anything with her, cos she's constantly seeking attention. =.= at least, i DUN see myself as overly sensitive or whatsoever. those who noes me pretty well shld just noe how much i heck care over most issues. god knows if im the most relaxed person in this universe, carefree of all the stupid problems that people seek for themselves. my mum told me to learn to interact with her, even though despite my constant complains over how much i really hate this colleague, since im the one who is being bullied while she doesnt know anything. i dun get this world, i didnt even offend her or anything to deserve such attitude from her. why shld i endure her bullying and everything just because im less approachable. to simply say, i simply find such people dumb, like bimbos or what so ever. urgh, this complicated world is too much for me to handle. gods knows if i'll break down one day from these stupid and dumb inter relationship and decide to go for world domination myself one day. i shall create a brand new world man, one with only intellectuals and strictly no bimbos and dumb dumb. the first one off my list shall be my retarded colleague. im scared. for real. buhhbye im back, from korea. photos up on facebook anyway.

the news has finally arrived and i am got damn it recieving the results on friday. i really 'cant wait'. anyway, with the results back, i think i can finally step down from work next mth and lead a life like what my sister led, while she schools her life away at SP. haven decide whether im going to australia with aunt next mth cos im still trying to persuade my mum to tag along. even though she only want to go there to pluck fruits while i wan to go SHOPPING. ahahah. omo omo, i really dun wan to get back my results. argh.

dat shall be it, im having a stomachache right now, so i gotta go. BUHH BYE! some photo evidence to the shirt incidence! OMO! im still grinning like mad now even after 1 day and plus.






anyway, its currently 6 am on a very nice morning, 17TH FEBRUARY! hahah, that will only meant that its my bday!:D totally lameness but who cares. sleepy but i cant sleepy at such a pt anymore cos i wun be able to wake up at all later on. gosh. neck aches are giving me a hard time to sleep in peace =X


edit: okay, the gif are friggin not animated on my blog. so i shall just suan le =.= omg-ness! totally happy today cos of da bomb in joongbo soompi page over the ssangchu tee shirts given by the thai and pinay fans! it's like after so long since getting any single news from the both of them. really happy that the scene was captured by many so that i could get to see his real reaction when he gotton the shirts. anw, ysaengie looks really cute in the dog backpack as he ran across the stage. *CHU* haha. today's is the 16th, 1 more day to my bday, plus 3 more days to korea. but somehow, im a little worried over certain stuff. OMO, WHY DOES IT TAKE SO LONG TO COME~ T.T suan le, shall not think abt it, mum told me the same thing anw. for now, i shall go back to wgm jokwon and ga-in cuts. this two is totally HILARIOUS! buhhbye! xP why does it take so long for the 19th to arrive, anyway, lets wait for the 17th to reach first den :D AHAHAH! 21 HOUR MORE TO GO! AHAHHA! TO END OF WORK, B4 I GO KOREA!

today was real scary, first of, i was asked to sit next to S, hence, making my day a real quiet one. secondly both chris AND s were in bad mood today, so i had to be real careful not to 惹到them. chris angry over sunday issue, which i had no participation in *like phew* and S being pissed of over chris, total bull shit the entire day. and im god damn glad that it was a busy day today, so little interactions were made. tmr's marshmellow meet up is cancelled to thursday. so equals to more time at jia hse tmr, making up xP haha, i wan to concentrate on my 娱百. so buhhbye! shall blog now cos it wun be convenient for me totally to blog tmr at work.

anw, counting down! TWO DAYYYS!

thinking back, i actually tot that sunday will be the worst day to go through, but now i actually think that ntmr is the worst day. at least i got stephanie at work with me ytd at the little cosy corner of ours. the two of us oblivious to the others xP. anw, i hop tmr pass quickly, so i'll only need to work last time at LI!!! :D on wednesday. cant wait for wed actually, since i have mjor plans. i better write out my plans for the net few days here, in case i forget like just now when i wanted to date chia, when i alr dated weiduo this coming sat =.=.

tmr, 'hell' at kerbau
wed: morning collection frm marshmellow at 9.45, meet at jia's hse after that, then chinatown make payment plus major shopping dere, b4 i go for my last day of work this mth at LI. im like so prepared for wed, that i even have in mind what im gg to wear. HAHAHA.
thurs: spring clean with sis at home, plus i neeed to wash my bedsheets, AND get new one. so much to do on thurs, shopping!!! and more shopping at night to buy stuff for 除夕dinner!
fri: no plans yet, but im gonna get smth done by then!
sat: meet up with jaley for polar bears! and gathering with weiduo and yanni! OMO i miss dem so much mans! new year eve then, hahaha, DINNER!

so that shall be it. abit more to go b4 i go to korea, can u imagine, its like just next fri, but why does it seems so farrrr away! hais, i shall wait and wait. and oh yah, speaking of waiting, i needa check the translation of 'waiting' in korean, so adios! first time blogging with my omnia 2. and somehow i can alr hear my mum's grumble when the bill comes. anyway dere goes my work at li as i get stuck at kerbau for the next few days. i mean i'll miss the comp and colleagues at li. (even tho im like gg bak dere on tge wed, my last day sommore) haha. at least theres stephanie at work with me tmr. i totally love chi companion much more than others. at last we make mor sense to eac other. cos we are similar in age. and i realise she like xiao zhu. just like me :) i shld probably get back to bed. got work tmr :/

and....... i lost my phone's stylus T.T UPDATE:

I Changed My Blog Heading To Major SSangchu-ness!




and Yeah, I Am Damn Happy xP


:D as usual, working at LI will always be fun, fun and more fun. quite an entertaining day today, seeing how i actually made stupid mistake such as pronouncing the bagladeshi's name wrongly (i read shake, literally english shake) and how i actually forgot my own id and password, leading to chris calling me kayu. oh wells,its fun to work dere no matter what.

anyway, ASA finally called me and this simply meant that KOREA TRIP IS OFFICIALLY CFM! hahaha, i cant wait, since work is zooming pass like a flash, abit more to go, six exactly b4 i get my offf day. this will only meant more shopping net wednesday when i go down to chinatown with jia and chia :D

okay, enough crapping, i shall go back to talking on msn, with the stupid orange lights keep blinking in front of me. adios!

P.S. i love my PINEAPPLE TARTS (: currently at work, with nobody around. and that's a good sign. i wan to go on my holiday now. and im bored, and i miss jia. sobs

just went to joongbo soompi page and those comments left by the joongbo-ers really made my day as we continue to believe strongly in the ssangchu couple. :D it's been god knows how long since the both of them left the show. but seriously, the interaction and love b/w the both of them is still strongly felt and believed by everyone. no matter what most ppl might always say, thinking that we joongbo-ers are living in our delusional world, at least it keep us happy to know that the both of them once exist :D it's good to rememeber their memories and pictures once in a long time, at least they keep me happy, just like how we joongbo-ers hoped that they will be, to simply remain happy. to the worldddddd xD guess what, ny gathering was cancelled. AS USUAL. no surprise anyway. and i dun really give a damn about it anymore.

anyways, with the canecellation of the meet up, i got more time for myself and jia wei yesterday. went to singapore driving school, damn entertaining, the interaction b/w jia wei and the customer service lady :D hahaha, they were like speaking to each other in their own world. anyway, major shopping ytd! esp with my january pay! AHAHAHA~ bought more MORE nail polish! some nail art jewel and a pair of new platform shoes! and a skirt and a shirt. HAHAHAH I LOVE SHOPPING, and i bet its wayy fun than picnic at barrage with nobidy :/ okay i shall eat my lunch now, sayonara, cos i need to get to little india later on for work :/

I WAN TO LEARN HOW TO MAKE UP :D yeah! finally back from chalet! no pics yet cos they are all with chery liu! ANYWAY! CHALET WAS REAL FUNN! went back to the same ol chalet! im like missing it alr, and i'll only get to see it next year =X hais. im a little sleepy. gotton too crazy today. buhhbbye!

p.s. i named myself the poopping machine today. stupid kfc dinner from prev night left me with a really bad stomachache! shopping with jia tmr and meeting with ny ppl tmr anw, even tho im not excited at all for the latter plans. :/ here i am, online as usual, trying to waste my time when i have absolutely nothing to do AND when i actually should be sleeping, just like how my mum always grumble. anw, ytd was the official day i started my 5 day off till friday before i go back to work. it was real fun to meet up with constance on saturday in the morning as we met for breakfast and went to causeway point to shop, esp with the new and same shades that we have gained from the trip. AND OH YAH! the perfect ramly burger i had as well was a plus pt. anyway, the weekends that i just had simply ment more shopping as i had a crazy socks shopping exp, currently have 5 pairs of cute and damn adorable socks :D and i bought a new pair of jeans, YET AGAIN! skinny jeans somemore! (: oh wells, perfect weekend with the perfect grp of people. anyway, today was fun as well as i spent some quality time with my sister and mum. went out for a short lunch break with my sister and me, my sis and my mum managed to actually waste some time together dye-ing our hair since the dye i bought is obviously too much for my short hair. my hair at least have some tinge of red by now. god knows if i might change the colour at chalet as i bought a new hair dye today. it looks damn purplish on the fake hair on display at guardian and i was totally attracted to it. who cares lah, shall decide when to re dye again at a later time. i realised how cute!!! my fringe actually looked with a hair band even tho there was totally no nid for one. at least it flattens my fringe and make my TOOT hairstyle looks even way dorky, something i've been trying to achieve. oh wells, i've typed enough and i should probably go back to my wgm ssangchu cuts, this is probably the i-dunno-how-many times-i've-watch-it. day two of blog revival plan :)

anyway, today was alot of fun since i got to finally buy my jeans for korea trip plus more new year shirts! korea trip is abt well prepared, considering that my clothes and winter wear is prepared, all that's left will be the damn luggage. anyway, i seriously think that chris is all going all the way out to prevent me working with chia cos just when i finally thought that i can get to work with her, she's actually sent to chinatown tmr. wdv luhh, at least i'll get to have dinner with daddy and sister tmr again at my fav curry peng stall :D currently still trying to decide the exact day i am actually going to dye my hair. hahaha, anw, chris informed me that i'll only need to work till the 12th of feb next mth before i go for my LONG LONG break! AHAHAHA! and i seriously cant wait for it! 3 more weeks! and i'll be free. ANW, I SHALL ENJOY MY LIFE AT WORK TMR. i must learn to like my life at work alone, so that i can actually learn to be less dependant on chia at work. i wan to be more independent, so that i'll be able to make the decision to continue working at the end of march. why do they always push everything to me to deal with. i do not have the responsibility to do anything. even tho i try hard to bring every one together, i doubt anyone will actually make the attempt like i did to at least stay connect. so why the hell sheould i give myself so much trouble organising everything, only to get myself disappointed all the time. i dun wan to be regarded as someone who is easily available to all the stupid jobs. this shall be the last time i'll do it. even though i know that all that awaits me will be mere disappointment at the end of everything... ... i shall continue my blogging habits from today onwards. i have left it dead for such a long time and obviuosly i should revive it. the next two weeks shall be one of the best 2 weeks i'll ever get since i start working. i am havng major off days! since this 2 weeks i'll only be working for 5 days =.=. i'll get to have more private time for myself, my family and obviously my friends. having a happy schedule for the next few days. and i cant wait

1. outing with sister tmr equals to more SHOPPING!
2. meeting up with ah cons on sat!
3. gathering with weiduo and olan and god knows who else on probably monday. HAHAHA
4. AWAY FOR CHALET from the 27th till 29th :D (ahahaha, jia and chia at WWW xP)
5. picnic at marina, suggestion of xiu wen on saturday (tentatively)

after this mth, all i'll left will be a few more days at work b4 cny and den officially b4 i fly off to korea on the 19th. cant wait! this period must be the best time of my life. work's been alot better since 113 and kerbau merged into 1. life became easier as well when S and J work tgt. good life for now, and i cant wait for my money to come, cos that will equals to MORE SHOPPING ON BLOGSHOPS. i love shopping! and oh yah! i needa dye my hair RED b4 cny! WOOHOO, MAJOR FUNNESS COMING UP! BBYE! today was the third time i actually cried waking up in my entire life (till now) i dunno wad made me cry, maybe it was the damn stress level that i was experiencing at the thought of working with S, or maybe it was just because of that damn touching dream i had of a dying dog with an indian name (after effects from working at little india for too long) oh well, at least i still can remember vividly about that poor dog. oh wells, at least i seriously felt alot better this morning after crying, maybe because i forgot abt the stress i had. S was alright anw today. okay, counting down, 1 month to korea. i wish i can stop working right now. NOW sianess, i damn sad. over a stupid phonecall. i should quit soon i think, like maybe dun work next mth or smth, save my energy. URGH. I DUN WANNA WORK AT KERBAU TMR. BYE GUYS AHHH~ it's been so long since i updated. currently at work till 10 plus plus and i still have no idea if im gg to jia jia hse to stay over. sianess and i am abt to be cold to death. ahh, i am friggin sleepy and i wan to go home sleep
bye bye -.- ohmygosh! i have finaly endured thru the whole A level process, though not really completely as of right now since i still got a damn chem mcq paper on monday. it feels really good to finally regain back my freedom! finally got to catch up with all the ss501 variety shows that i've missed over the whole study period, and i know there's more to come! especially with the increasing no. of shows that ss501 is gg to attend and all the drams i wan to watch. currently really obsessed with reading mangas! omg, i got so many things that i wan to do, and im actually starting to doubt myself whether i'll have the time to do so, esp after i start working. still waiting for the manager of western union to call me to inform me of my schedule! hee! cant wait to actually earn some hard real cash! i am so gg to get anew lap top once i get my money! i cant stand the lap top that i am currently using cos it has totally gone bonkers. oh well, 1 week break before i start working! really wish to meet up with all my friends real soon! esp wei duo and olan :] HAHA, IM SO GONNA DYE MY HAIR REAL SOON! for now, i shall just leave it till here, ADIOS! :]

ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ~!
사링해 ♥ i should probably update my blog! its been so loong! i had a damn hectic week, and im so damn glad that the weekends are finally here! been trying to restrict myself for using the comp for too long! and im glad that its actually working, since i only come online for about 1 hour to settle my facebook stuff and obviously enjoy my daily dose of ssangchu news! anyways! here i am online once again cos i refuse to start on any work -_-! i have loads of things due next week, esp with the upcoming mock prelim maths paper! im so determined to at least prove to myself and kooi that i can actually pass maths, but im so damn feeling 力不从心! HAIS, WHAT THE HELL SHLD I DO! oh wells what else can i do but to work hard esp during these few days for maths! GOSH GOSH GOSH! PRELIMS ARE COMING!!! i shall go to bed early today! so that i can wake up early tmr! anyway! JIA YOUS FOR MY STUDIES AND WDV! hai, i leave liao lah! im bored anyway! bbye!! im online once again for my daily dose of ssangchu news, and somehow i just ended up doing nothing and sianing myself. haha! have been fb-ing and playing all the games these few days! anyway! while i was getting my ssangchu addiction fixed, i've decided to upload this and shun bian update my blog! for some damn reason, i am absolutely bombarded with fatigue-ness for the entire week! haiz, totally sian and tired! OH WELLS! suppsoingly tmr is the last day of sch before the weekends, hence!!! I CANT WAIT!!! hahaha! oh wells, i shall go to bed soon cos i got maths extra consultation with mr kooi tmr! haiz. this is blog post 261. i actually have no idea why the hell im online! shouldn't i be studying for the damn As? haiz! i think im wu yao ke jiu lah! i know that i should stop using, and i have nth to do on9 anyway =.= but i still come on9. haiz! TOTALLY SIAN LAH! I SHALL LEAVE SOON I PROMISE. bbye~

haiz totally bored of the comp now. I TOTALLY HAVE NTH TO DO! ahh, i dun really want to leave the comp after wtaching so many videos. i miss my life during the holidays but god damn it i need to leave cos i haven pack my bag and sort of my stuff whch have gone missing right from the start of my holidays. uber depressed now cos i'll miss my comp. GOODBYE :/ AHHHHHHHHHHH, gosh gosh!! i've finally watched the 2nd episode of the solo collection!!! shall find a full ver before i put it on my blog! anyway, din really understand the mv lahs. hahaha! but HJL and young masters were really cute and cool in the mv~ AHHHH. the disc i've pre ordered is currently being shipped off to my hse! cant wait to recieve it. and altho im slow, i just realised that ss501 photobook has pictures of joongbo~ thats makes me want to buy it so much! but its like 100 over dollars lah!!! o.o anyway, i shall save to buy. ahh, finally its the last day of the holidays and this shall be the last thing i do before i officially off the comp and try not to use for at least the next five days. spent these days watching ss501 vids and im frigginly crying over the vids once again. ahh, wdv, i've been showing the weaker side of me these few days and i dun really like that. gosh, currently lacking immense amt of sleep cos i haven slept since ytd due to some idiotic insomnia. i shall finish my hydro revision today by 7 and revise my chem once again. ahh, i need to calm down my nerves from the damn crying. wadever lah, i shall go le lah. gambatte all the way for my studies. I HATE THE STUPID MID YEARS. AHAHA, its 3 in the morning and im currently on the net as usual, with jia and chia on conference call toking abt their sch stuff. YEAH. super bored now cos i cant play maple. BUT that not really a good thing cos im suppose to be studying! WHY CANT THE MSG GET INTO MY HEAD THAT I SHOULD BE STUDYING INSTEAD OF MAPLING. i am so screwing my life right now. i can so foresee my results but im simply not doing any actions to it! I NID TO GET IT INTO MY HEAD~ I NEED TO STUDY! I NEED THE EXTENDED HOLIDAY FROM MOE. I SHOULD JUST TAKE MY PASSPORT AND GO TO THAILAND BY CAR NOW AT THIS MOMENT SO THAT I CAN QUALIFY FOR THE DAMN HOLIDAY!!! gosh!! seriously nid to pull up my socks~



yeah! i was mad just now and decided to snip of all my hair including my lovely FRINGE~ gosh i'll really miss it.

hmm, haven blog in a long time. anyway, i just ended a call from constance about 1 hour ago. first time chatting on the phone for a long time with people that i've known in nanyang. to me, it felt really special and im really glad that it was constance. was it because that we have more topics to talk about? sometimes, i feel that im probably too close to my clique in class that i often find it difficult to find a common topic among us to talk about. has it been because me and constance are no longer in the same class that i find it so much easier to talk to her than anyone else in the clique in 0833. its sounds sad to know that i can actually relate so much easier to someone else because i dun seem to be as close to her than before. but somehow, i feel that im alot closer to constance than anyone else in the class at this moment. i dunno how, maybe im just disappointed, cos no matter how much effort i put in to try to become closer to anyone else in the clique, i just find that it gets even more difficult each time. the disappointment that i've felt esp after the last outing (which ended up with only 3 ppl) makes me feel that the more i spend time with these ppl, the more i feel out of place. i should probably take a step back in distancing ourselves before i could probably get to see the picture clearer. urgh, human relationship is too complicated for me to handle with

p.s. I LOVE CONSTANCE :D 我发现那不是所谓的一见钟情，而是了解了他的真个性后才慢慢地爱上他。我对他的爱让我发觉原来我是多么的不了解自己，遗憾啊~！ im feeling exceptionally calm today after last night. probably a good thing okay, im up exceptionally early even tho i slept at 5 last night. gosh, i think my addiction is super duper huge!!! anw, i was kind of depressed cos i couldnt wake up thinking abt him!! AHHH! IT WAS SUCH A NICE DREAM THE PREV NIGHT. i was thinking so much before i slept and i din even dream abt a single shit?! haha, can someone tell me how to ctrl my dreams? i wish i can wake up as happily as the other time. GOSH, SUPER DEPRESS NOW.  today is a super depressing day. even though the only good thing was the dream i had last night. super happy when i woke up dreaming about him, i tot my day was gg to be fantastic but everything when all wrong since then. i just came home from amk hub with family, and we were actually there becos we were gg to shop for a new tv. i was all happy when my dad told me that we were gg to shop for a new one last night and he even reminded me in the morn when i woke up. BUT GOSH, EVERYTHING SUCK. i hate it when people make me have high hopes over anything, cos i will only get super depressed and irritated when everything that was somehow promised is not done at all. i know its stupid to fight over stalling the time to buy the new tv, but im super uber irritated!! cos i got fucking dissapointed after that. everyone is ignoring my mum now becos of her stupid actions, my dad to, and i just wanna say that im SUPER UBER DUPER IRRITATED AND DISSAPOINTED, so DUN KEEP MY HOPES HIGH NEXT TIME. i shall go look for some comfort in my vids, cos he's the only one that has brought me laughter over these few days  OMG, im having a stomachache right now right after the third scoop of my fav cookies and cream ice cream.  counting down to holidays: 6 more days while i was watching 娱乐百分百 just now, xiao zhu mentioned that there could probably have 13 horoscope in today's world and thats super cool. i tried to do some research, and im glad that im STILL AN AQUARIUS :D anyway, i got really interested in the facts about aquarius so im gonna post up some stuff i've read~

最知性、 agree

最难理解、 agree

最喜欢独处、 well, if i really need peace and quiet, if not i'll stick to someone no matter wad

最敢与众不同、 no, i have no courage

最不重视纪律、 erm, must see to what extent lorhs

最懒、 100% TOTALLY AGREE

最可能当黑马、 haha, yeah, watch out 

最会突发奇想、 erm, i dun really like to use my brain

最重视精神层面、 i think so

最可能有收集癖、 nopps

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