Saturday, December 2, 2006 3:49 AM
life sucks.
seriously. although its been like what ?! half a month passed only for the whole hols, i realised i am actually quite tight for time for like the whole december.well, considering the vast amount of homework and revisions i have to do, furthermore, library stuff to add on to my burden. i guess, my whole hols are simply ruined by schoolwork.
i really wanted a break. so that i can really rest well, prepare myself for a new year. i know next year is gonna be tough. and i am starting to change my mind of going to a JC after hearing all the 'advice' from xinyi. i really got loads of buck up work to do, maybe should come up with a schedule or something like that. intend to spent my next 15 days of december really concentrated on the library stuff, chiong-ing my best for schoolwork after 15th. i look at the amount of homework and revisions piled up, furthermore, with even more homework from tuition, with it starting like what, today?! fines lor.
i am thinking, seriously PONDERING. maybe i shall stop all outdoor activities. i don't know. i want to chiong for my studies on one hand, but then, i really don't have the heart to go do what i actually want. i really want to get good result for my 'o's, my mum's been blabbering on how much hopes she had on me, how she expects me to win that wadeva boy. stress is beginning to fill in. oh man, cant life be easier for us? i am just a mere 15 year old girl. in other countries, wad are 15 year old girls doing?
crap. it's all crap. there is nothing i can do to change the situation. well, i guess, soon on my wishlist, there might be more to add on, but the no. of wishes for materialistic dreams will be lesser. MUCH MORE. i think for now, i can only seriously get rid of all my burden, and try to really squeeze in some time at the end of december, for me to really take a good break.
life will be easier one day,
i hoped.
