Sunday, July 20, 2008 10:48 PM
hello, finally back for blogging. its been a long long time since i've updated. i dont noe why but i somtimes just find it a little too troublesome to come in to blog. simply a waste of time to type out what i want to say. well, since i have nothing to do now, shall just waste my time then.
haiz. mids years are so over and life is back on track. but i still sort of no sense of danger/ urgency about the coming promos and everything. i mean i noe i need to buck up since my grades are like !@#$%^& i've tried...(being hardworking everynight since there's simply no shows to watch now on tv) but i can sort of sense myself getting back to my bad habits. (= watching tv even though THERE'S NTH TO WATCH!!!) I NID TO WAKE UP MAN. though i've been telling everyone that im actually fine with retaining and everything, i still wish to sucessully pass my promos and get promoted larhs! =,=". haiz! must have more determination man. why do i give up and slack off so easily T.T.
life excluding schoolworks has been normal i guess, just except for some up and downs. i've really been a little sensitive to my environment. i mean i start to care on how others see me esp her. after going through all the traumatising before the june holidays, i guess there is sort of this shield when interact w/ others bah. i dunno how i feel abt the matter but i do get irritated and emo somehow.i mean its still the same situation but i shld really learn to let go. OH MANS. why shld i even grow up. i just wish that my life will stop at my sec3/4 years. i mean, hello, all my best frens are still w/ me during those time,unlike now, which i have no faith at all to whats happening in my life. i dont really look forward to adulthood, cos sometimes i just tend to think too much, esp when i could'nt sleep and i start thinking of all the bad things that is going to happen in my life. grr. im so troubled. i miss my frens T.T
i want a usa-chan, just like hani sempai to lead a life like his~ ^^
