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Thursday, April 1, 2010 3:09 AM

back at blogging, seriously at the same time period all the time. anyways, i finally had a chance to train my maljongie at kerning PQ. coolios cos i leveled by 3 levels today. im so lazy all the time, and irefuse to go in maple as well, i should simply uninstall it to save space on my comp isnt it. haiz. anyay, i felt really bad today when i made the fone call to ah cons. i know how irritating it is to date someone and back out last minute and yet i do the same thing to her. omgness, i should just confirm my stupid working schedule with chris first next time before i make any empty promises. really sorry cons :/ i guess u must have felt disappointed when u recieved my fone call. and i bet nobody will be attending the picnic anyway even if we change the date to saturday. somehow i just know it cos we always get the same results when i organise any gathering. that's why i chose to leave the matters to ah cons. less disappointment the better. so selfish aint i.

i guess i must be really selfish. i am selfish to begin with anyway. i like to keep matters to myself and i always do weird actions just to protect myself from getting hurt, and often, the only consequences will b that the other party get hurts only. what a selfish prat/bastard whatsoever i am. so what if i know, im friggin not doing anything to correct my behaviour, im incorrigible. i get sick of myself all the time anyway. stupid sickening ME.